Friday, May 27, 2022

You want a purpose in life. But what that is eludes you.

 

Who can you turn to for help? You are ready to give up, when you hear from . . .

 

 

The Voice From Within

 

“Yes,

I’m talking to you.

What?

I can’t be?

Why not?”

 

I just ignored

the patter

coming from within.

The trees blew

in the wind,

as I sat

on the recliner

in the backyard.

 

I gazed

at the pad

I held

in my hand

and jotted down notes

about my existence.

 

“Do you hear me?

You don’t want to?

For heaven’s sake,

why not?”

 

I hadn’t

accomplished anything

in life.

My world

was bleak.

I didn’t know

what to do.

 

Maybe I should

just end it.

Nobody

would care.

 

“Listen to me.

You’re going

in the wrong direction.

Don’t tell me

you’ve already

made up your mind.

You don’t have the right

to do that,

without asking me.”

 

I shook

my head,

trying to make

the gibberish

disappear.

It was my decision

to make,

and I had

to make it alone.

It would be

the one and only

accomplishment

I could list

on the page

in my book

of life.

 

“Don’t you dare

tell me,

goodbye.

It’s too soon.

You’re way too young.

Your future

is beckoning you

to take control.

Why won’t you listen?”

 

I shrugged

my shoulders.

I didn’t need

to fight

for a life

that wasn’t meant

to be.

I’m a loser.

Nobody’s

going to miss me.

Nobody.

 

“You’re wrong.

Don’t . . .”

 

The kitchen

screen door

rattled,

drawing

my attention

away

from the debate

I shouldn’t

have been having.

 

Melrose,

my sixty pound,

Australian Shepard,

bounded

toward me

and planted

the biggest

slobbering kiss

across my face.

 

I wiped

the drool off

and looked

at my watch.

“Yup,

it’s dinnertime,”

I muttered.

 

I stared

at Melrose,

who gave me

the neediest look

I’d ever seen.

 

The bright sun

behind him

painted a halo

around my “angel”

and warmed

my heart—

the one

wonderful reason

for my existence. 

 

 

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Tuesday, May 17, 2022

Growing up has its ups and downs. Things can get complicated.

 

When friendship turns to love, can it work? Explore the possibility in . . .

 

 

A Love Not Denied

 

A question,

an answer,

a sign

of the truth.

A friendship develops,

then love

blossoms

in youth.

 

Surprised,

unsure

of how

to proceed,

you follow

the path,

with caution,

indeed.

 

You believe

it can happen,

and must

be tried.

But still feeling alone,

the ribbon

of love

remains untied.

 

You’ve come

a long way

to reach

this point,

and pray

to God

for the power

not to disappoint.

 

Wanting,

but scared,

of what you

have found,

no longer

alone,

now together

bound.

 

Not knowing

what tomorrow

may hold

or dismiss,

you seek

the opportunity

to enjoy your

first kiss.

 

Embrace the moment.

Cherish the warmth,

as you engage

in life’s dance.

The time is right.

Follow your heart

and take

a chance.

 

Share

your feelings.

Imagine

what could be.

Trust

this is possible.

Love

is your destiny

 

As time

marches on,

the road

is long.

Believe two hearts

can unite

as one

in song.

 

Souls

blend,

as eyes

open wide.

The future

now clear—

a love

not denied.

 

 

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Wednesday, May 4, 2022

As a child, my eye doctor told me I needed glasses. I wasn’t happy with his diagnosis. At school, other kids made fun of me for wearing them. Therefore, whenever possible, I avoided doing so.

 

However, growing up might have been easier, if I was able to adjust to living in an  . . .

 

 

Eyeglass World

 

     The bell rang, announcing the beginning of the school day. I closed my locker. I was about to turn and head for my sixth-grade classroom, when a voice shouted, “Hey, four-eyes!”

     I didn’t turn around and didn’t respond, but I knew who it was. Omar Tucker’s voice was unmistakable.

     “Didn’t you hear me, nerd?” he yelled.

     I wanted to run, but two other bullies, Jesse Sampson and Mica Fabian approached—pointing at me and singing, “Nerdy birdy, you’re so wordy. Gonna stick your face in mud and get your glasses dirty.”

     I bent my head down, so I wouldn’t have to make eye contact and attempted to shuffle past them. As I did, Mica gave me a shoulder bump, so hard it almost knocked me over.

     Regaining my balance, I made my way down the hall and entered my classroom, leaving the “crap ass jerks” laughing hysterically. Another wonderful day had begun.

     This experience wasn’t something new. I got my first pair of horn-rimmed glasses when I was six. I hated them. But the alternative, my father said, was going blind. So I wore them. And who picked on me? That’s right, Omar, Jesse, and Mica.

     Last year was a turning point in my life, or so I thought. Mrs. Downing, my fifth grade teacher, assigned an in-class art project, where we had to create a collage. I had junk to paste on a large piece of cardstock paper spread all over my desk. I’d removed my glasses to work on the project. When I cleaned off my desk at the end of the day, they had disappeared. I searched the top section of the large trash bin in the back of the classroom, where we were told to dispose of our garbage, but they weren’t there. I was delighted they were gone, but dreaded going home to tell Dad.

     When I got home, Dad looked at me with a weird expression on his face. “Where are your glasses, Brady?” he asked.

     “I don’t know,” I replied.

     “Well, tomorrow, you will make sure to find them.”

     When I entered my classroom the next day, I walked to my desk. There, my “additional two eyes” sat propped up, ready to be worn. I found out, later in the day, the custodian had discovered them at the bottom of the trashcan when he emptied it. He didn’t have to think twice about whose they were. They’d become my trademark.

     Sixth grade got worse as the year progressed. After school one afternoon, I mounted my bike and took a shortcut home through a back ally behind some stores. What I didn’t realize was that I was being followed.

     A loud, booming voice screamed, “Where’re you going, geek?”

     Turning my head, I saw Jesse and Mica, on their bikes behind me. Surprised, I dismounted mine. Now standing beside their bikes, Mica looked at Jesse and said, “Let’s give the creep two big, black eyes.”

     “Let’s make it two ‘broken-glass eyes’ and two black ones,” Jesse declared, laughing.

     They seemed to be getting a lot of pleasure from taunting me. I knew what I had to do—get out of the ally. However, when I turned to get back on my bike, I noticed a huge truck I hadn’t seen before blocking my exit route. Now what? I thought.

     I needed to come up with a getaway plan quickly or be beaten to a pulp. I stared at the enemy walking toward me with their fists clenched. Then I remembered what my doctor had told me at my physical exam a couple of weeks earlier. He said, “Brady, you’re built like a professional boxer. Look at your bulging muscles.”

     I ripped off my shirt, held my arms up so my muscles rose like mountains on them, closed my fists, and glared at Mica and Jesse, with my menacing “four eyes.” To my amazement they turned, ran back to their bikes, and took off, like the cowards they were.

     The rest of sixth grade was uneventful. I still hated my glasses, but the bullies left me alone. At home, things didn’t change. Dad still insisted I wear them. “Brady, you’ve got to be strong. The glasses are part of the man you will become. They will help you to succeed in life.”

     “But they make me look like a nerd,” I stated.

     “Only if you want them too.”

     “But . . .”

     “No more buts. Grow up and see the world clearly through your lenses.”

     I wasn’t going to win, so I just said, “Okay.”

     That night, as I got ready for bed, I stood in front of the bathroom mirror, with my glasses on, and flexed my muscles. The muscles looked good, but the glasses were another story.

     I placed them on the nightstand, crawled into bed, and shut off the light. “Maybe tomorrow will be a better day,” I murmured. I drifted off into a peaceful sleep and then . . .

     “Brady, do you want to see your future?” a soft-spoken voice asked.

     “Huh, what are you talking about?”   

     “Put on your glasses and you’ll see.”

     “It’s the middle of the night? I’ve got to be up early for my dental appointment tomorrow. Just let me sleep. This is just a dream anyway. Isn’t it?”

     “Maybe. But don’t you want to see your future?”

     “My future. I’ll be in seventh grade next fall.”

     “You’re being shortsighted.”

     “I know. That’s why I have to wear glasses.”

     “It’s more than that. What do you want to be when you grow up?”

     “I don’t have a clue.”

     “Do you want me to show you?”

     “This is ridiculous. If I say yes, will you go away?”

     “I’ll never go away, but I’ll consider leaving you alone for awhile.”

     I reached over and grabbed my glasses off the nightstand and slid them up on my nose and looked for the person talking to me. But what I saw blew me away.

     A much older me, with glasses firmly in place, stood behind a podium, as about forty newspaper reporters yelled at him. “Governor Tate, who have you chosen to lead the Attorney General’s Statewide Organized Crime Task Force?”

     Governor? Who, me? Organized Crime Task Force? What’s this all about? I thought.

     Then my older self spoke, with conviction, “I have given this considerable thought and have selected three of the most respected law enforcement professionals in the state to serve together in this capacity. It is my honor to introduce . . . Omar Tucker, Jesse Sampson, and Mica Fabian.”

     My glasses slipped off my nose, as I jumped out of bed, gasping for breath. Now realizing what the future had in store for me, I shook my head and muttered, “That can’t be true . . . Can it?”

 

 

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