Friday, June 27, 2025

None of us are perfect. We make decisions that can twist our lives in ways we never predicted.

 

The things we do impact those around us, sometimes negatively. And we try to make amends to . . .

 

 

The People Wronged

 

It was yesterday.

No, maybe the day before.

I couldn’t remember—

my mind clouded

with memories of the past,

a past I’d been trying

to escape from

and change

the direction of my life.

 

I shouldn’t have done it,

but I couldn’t resist.

I shouldn’t have done it,

but hoped I wouldn’t get caught.

I never thought they’d be watching,

as I made my move.

But they were.

And there was no way

I could hide.

 

I tried,

as chills engulfed me.

I pulled the covers up

over my head.

Fear welled up

within me.

I dared not run,

fearing

the unknown.

 

Days flew by,

and I dreaded

what might be.

The wind blew

through my hair,

as I tried

to undo the undoable.

I had to.

Yes, I had to.

 

Living in a personal hell

was a death sentence

I couldn’t accept.

The alternative—

I didn’t have a clue.

I prayed

for forgiveness

I didn’t deserve

and wouldn’t receive.

 

Then a light

Illuminated the darkness

of a world

I didn’t know,

one of hope

and dreams,

one

offering me

a second chance.

 

But why? I thought.

Then a hand

motioned to me

to come,

and I did.

And there they were,

the people

I’d thought I’d lost,

the people I’d wronged.

 

I bowed before them

and muttered,

“I’m forever sorry

for what

I’ve put you through

and am ashamed

for what I’ve done.

Please

forgive me.”

 

The warden

pulled the lever

and gas

filled my lungs.

My mind clouded

with memories of the past,

a past that disappeared,

as I slipped

into a sea of darkness.

 

 

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Friday, June 20, 2025

There comes a time in your life when you lose sight of what’s happening. You become confused and unsure of how to navigate life’s paths.

 

You spin in circles, past and present colliding, and ask, . . .

 

 

“Who Am I?”

 

My mind is both cluttered

and empty at the same time.

The jumble of past thoughts

seems like a junk-filled garage,

everything there,

but nothing obvious.

I’m a retiree, and I’m living

in a state of confusion.

Does my muddled present

portend what my future will hold? 

Old age frightens the hell out of me.

I can remember lots of stuff,

but at the same time,

many things have disappeared

into the recesses of my mind.

When I enter a room,

sometimes I wonder where I am

and what I came in for.

I’m plagued by the question,

“What am I meant to do

for the rest of my life?”

It bothers me

that I don’t know the answer.

If my body would let me reach

all the lofty goals I set for myself,

I could live a life of contentment.

I told my wife,

If I ever get up in the morning and say,

“I feel fine. I have no pain at all.

Then call the mortuary,

for I must have died

during the night.”

Now, the road I traveled

hasn’t been smooth,

But somehow, I’ve managed

to reach my destination.

I’m not rich or famous,

but I have a comfortable life.

However, things have changed

as time marched on.

At times, I live in a world

of dreams and fantasies.

I become different people

and lose sight of who I am.  

Some days I’m at peace with this,

While on others,

I think I’m going crazy.

I gaze at the ceiling and ask,

“Who am I?”

 

 

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Monday, June 9, 2025

You have many decisions to make in life. A major one is when to retire.

 

You need to plan for the next stage of your life. But how long will you live? To find out, just look at . . .

 

 

Your Date Stamp

 

     I love my job, but there comes a point in every man’s life when it is time to call it quits. I’ve been a science teacher at Gulliver’s Travels High School for forty years, since 2005. It’s been a good career, for the most part.  Many mornings in the past, I marched down the hall to my classroom to rousing greetings from my students.

     “Hey, Mr. Lowry, good morning. See you fifth period.”

     “Morning, my favorite teacher. I’m going to beat you to class.”

     “What are we going to talk about today, Mr. Lowry. I can’t wait.”

     “Science is my favorite subject because of you, Mr. Lowry.”

     That was the past. Now, at age sixty-four, at the beginning of a new year, my cluttered mind drifted in and out. Why should I ever leave teaching? However, it’s a decision we all must face sooner or later. And later seems to be coming sooner.

     “Lowry, I need to see you in my office,” Principal Navarro exclaimed.

     “But, I’ve got a class to get to.”

     “So, you’ll be late. I’ll message your students to enjoy each other’s company until you get there.”

     I entered Principal Navarro’s office. “What’s this all about?”

     “Some of your students have come to see me. They feel your teaching methods are grounded in the past—outdated. It’s 2045. You’ve got to embrace the newest technology. Use it in your classroom.”

     “I hear what you’re saying, but I don’t agree.”

     “You don’t agree? We received a $5,000,000 grant two years ago to upgrade our classroom technology, and we did, with the expectation that all teachers would use it.”

     “But I like interaction in my classroom. Students need to work with each other and not be married to their devices.”

     “We left that world behind us many years ago. Technology rules. And the student complaints about your methodology are right on. And the number is growing. Maybe you should consider retirement.”

     “Maybe I should.”

     I left the principal’s office, walked down the hall, and entered my classroom. To my dismay, nobody was there. However, on the large screen in front of the room, words jumped out at me. “We don’t need to be here today and maybe never. ‘AI’ rules.”

     Brought up in a religious home, I thought God ruled, not ‘AI.’ Maybe the end of this year was the right time to retire. I would have a new life ahead of me for however long God intended me to live.

     It would be great, if I could predict my future and know when my final year of life would be. Then I could make plans and have the opportunity to fulfill them. But I knew this was a dream and not a possibility.

     At home that evening, I sat on the couch and thought about retiring. The answer was, “Yes!” But what would I do with my free time?

     My wife died three years ago and we didn’t have any children. So I was alone and in full control, or so I thought.

     However, in today’s world, all houses are equipped with ‘AI’ to keep you up-to-date on everything that’s happening locally and worldwide. It also answers any questions you might have, whether or not you verbalize them. It infiltrates both body and mind, but, hopefully, not soul.

     My stomach started to rumble, so I thought, What do I want for dinner?

     Your refrigerator is empty. The pasta and chicken dish on Verzano Italiano’s menu is to die for, ‘AI’ chanted.

     I didn’t want to die, but the dish sounded good. So I said, “Order that for me.”

     It has been done and will be delivered in twenty-five minutes. The cost is $34.87.

     The end of the school year came all too soon. On graduation day, June 16, 2045, I sat in the audience and watched the students approach the stage to receive their diplomas. A wonderful future was ahead of them, and it made me feel good. However, I quivered a bit, as I speculated about what the next stage of my life would be like. And then . . .

     Principal Navarro sung out, “I’d like to invite Mr. Max Lowry to come up and receive the 2045 Gulliver’s Travels High School Career Teaching Award.”

     I was speechless. I made my way to the stage to accept the honor, with a broad smile on my face.

     “Congratulations, Mr. Lowry, and thank you for all you have given our school and students during your forty years of exemplary service. We want to wish you a happy and healthy retirement,” Principal Navarro said, with enthusiasm.

     He handed me a framed certificate. I took it, shook his hand and muttered, “Thank you.” I was overwhelmed by this unexpected recognition.

     I headed home, got ready for bed and a sound night’s sleep. I awoke the next morning and welcomed a new day and the beginning of the next stage of my life. I wondered, What am I going to do during the next twenty or more years?

     But you do not have twenty years to live, ‘AI’ stated.

     “Huh. How do you know that?”

     Because it was decided at birth.

     “That can’t be.”

     Every human being has an expiration date.

     “A what?”

     A date on which you will be taken to a better place.

     “You can’t be serious.”

     Check your date stamp.

     “My what?”

     Your date stamp.

     “Where is it?

     On the side of your big toe on your right foot.

     I took off my sock and looked. “I don’t see anything,” I stuttered.

     Use your magnifying glass, ‘AI’ instructed.

     I reached over and took it out of my nightstand drawer. I forced it between my toes and gasped, “6-17-2046—one year from today.”

     My heart beat so quickly, I thought I was having a heart attack. I screamed, “I’m dying!”

     You will be, but not today.

 

 

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