Friday, April 19, 2024

Welcome To My Blog

 

To help you select the stories and poetry you might want to read, below is the list of all posts made to my blog since its inception. Posts are listed in chronological order from the first post made on April 18, 2019, until the most recent post (The most recent post appears first on the blog). Please browse the list of posts to find the titles that most intrigue you. Then do one of the following:

 

1.         Place the title of the post in the space beneath the header, “Search This Blog.” With regard to poetry, a post may contain more than one poem. You may have to insert the first two poems listed to find what you want. Then click on search. The posting should appear at the top of the screen for you to read. Or . . .

 

2.         Using the date a particular posting was made, go to the “Blog Archive” to the right of the posts and click on the particular month in which the poem or short story was posted and scroll down until you find what you would like to read. Please note that if you scroll through all the posts on the screen and don’t find what you are looking for, below the last post on the screen, on the right, are the words, “Older Posts.” Click on this and you will find the additional posts made during the particular month you have selected. Scroll through these until you find the story or poem you wish to read.

 

Enjoy the journey, as you read the creations of my heart and my mind.

 

Thank you.

 

Alan

Alan Lowe
Poet and Writer

slolowe@icloud.com

https://slolowe44.blogspot.com/

 

 



 
 





 

Are you the person you dreamed of becoming when you were young? What if you are told you need help in finding your way?

 

Someone reaches out to you, but you see yourself as more than . . .

 

 

Just Okay

 

He looked at me with a twinkle in his eyes,

but did and said nothing, to my surprise.

 

As I proceeded down the street, he followed me.

Why he did, I had no clue—his reason a mystery.

 

I wanted him to go away—disappear.

And he did, as I stood in awe there.

 

Then melodic music flowed through the air in a comforting way,

as beautiful white clouds enhanced an otherwise drab day.

 

So I stared straight ahead and continued to walk.                                       

With the music in the background, someone began to talk.

 

“Why are you ignoring me? I can help you become a better man.

 Together we can strengthen your weaknesses and develop a life plan.”

 

I didn’t know how to react or what to say.

I thought I knew who I was and believed my life was okay.

 

“Just okay,” he stated. “Is that all you want it to be?”

He seemed able to read my mind, which scared the hell out of me.

 

“Who are you?” I asked. “And what do you want me to do?”                       

“I’m your guardian angel. Look in a mirror. You’ll see an image of your        

    future self come into view.”

 

“An image of my future self? But I know who I am and who I want to become. 

    So what do you want me to see?”

“A man of strength and good character—the person you aspired to be.

 

“Not the lost soul you became when you went astray.

So stand up tall, Quinn, hold your head high, and become the person you    

    should have been today.”

 

What! My name isn’t Quinn, it’s Shea. You’ve got the wrong person, so go away.

With a sigh of relief, I stood up tall, held my head high, and believing 

    even angels make mistakes, knew I’d have a better day.

 

 

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Saturday, April 6, 2024

Three strikes and you’re out. Is this the way it works in life?

 

Sometimes you have to keep trying, as becomes clear in . . . 

 

 

A Marriage Of Inconvenience

 

I looked at her and dreamed of what could be.

She was gorgeous, a good catch, as all could see.

 

Would she like me? Could I be the one?

How do I approach her? This wasn’t fun.

 

I stared off into space, trying to develop a plan.

Coming together probably would increase my life span.

 

Being successful at love hadn’t been my style.

Two marriages failed, I’ve been single for a while.

 

I had to put my mistakes behind me—move forward with my life.

This seemed the right thing to do—make her my wife.

 

I wasn’t perfect, but I was one of a kind—

Good looking, I believe, and intelligent and funny—certainly a good find.

 

She glanced at me and gave me a whimsical smile.

My heart skipped a beat—my ability to succeed now on trial.

 

Well, that was twenty years ago and, yes, she became my wife.

And my world changed in a way I’d never expected, causing me considerable strife.

 

Each day I tried to be the best I could, but nothing I did was ever right.

My days were hellish and I dreaded coming home from work at night.

 

I entered into this relationship and pledged to make it a success.

However, the more I attempted to please her the more our life became a mess.

 

I held my head in my hands and believed my situation must be unreal.

But it wasn’t, and I wondered what I’d done to deserve such a raw deal.

 

This marriage of inconvenience had indeed damaged my pride.

And now three times in my life I’d chosen the wrong bride.

 

 

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Wednesday, March 27, 2024

 2024 VOICES OF LINCOLN POETRY CONTEST


Poets wanted. The 20th Annual Voices of Lincoln Poetry Contest begins in April, National Poetry Month. The contest theme is “HAPPY LEAP YEAR! . . . Leap Into Poetry.” Both adult and young poets are encouraged to enter. 

 

Contest "Rules and Entry Form" can be downloaded here or requested from Alan Lowe, Contest Coordinator, at slolowe@icloud.com.







Monday, March 25, 2024

It can be a cruel world. Survival can be difficult.

 

A peaceful existence desired, but not easy to attain, as you address . . .

 

 

Life’s Challenges

 

I don’t like the way I feel.

I wish I had the ability to strike a deal.
I don’t like being treated like this.

I wish my efforts to succeed hadn’t gone amiss.

I don’t like the weird smile on your face.

I wish you’d disappear from my life without a trace.
I don’t like the time of day I arise.

I wish not to see the people I despise.

I don’t like them here or there.

I wish they weren’t anywhere.

I don’t want my past to color my future days.

I wish I could mend the errors of my ways.
I don’t like the fear within me.

I wish for solace and harmony.

 

 

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Thursday, March 21, 2024

What was your life like as a freshman in high school? Were you able to stand up to the bullies?

 

Or did you cower on the sidelines wondering if you’d survive their torment? How did you cope? After many years, you may find yourself . . .

 

 

 Revisiting The Past

 

     Twenty years have passed since that day at Forest Oaks High School. As a fourteen-year-old freshman, I was smaller than most guys my age. And as a self-identified bookworm, I didn’t possess the ability to fight the bullies who tormented me. As I lay in my stainless steel bed, I recalled all the details of that day.

     I woke up late Friday morning. The sun peered through my bedroom window. I stared at the clock on my nightstand.

     “Oh, my God!” I screamed.

     “What’s all the racket, Brian?” Mom yelled.

     “I’m going to be late for school.”

     “No you’re not.”

     “I’m not?”

     “This is a late start day—teacher meetings this morning. Classes don’t begin until ten.”

     I breathed a sigh of relief. Maybe today wouldn’t be a bad as I thought.

     Arriving at school just before my third period class, I pushed my bike into the bike rack, secured the lock, and hustled off to class.

     As I made my way down the hallway to my classroom, I straightened my horn-rimmed glasses and squinted, as the bright sunlight from a hall window blinded me.

     Entering my English classroom, I walked to my seat, placed my book bag on the desk, and . . . plummeted to the floor—as my chair disappeared from behind me. The laughter resounding around me was excruciating.

     I wanted to run, but I was on the floor and couldn’t. So I crawled toward my chair, trying to stay invisible, and slid back dragging it behind me to my desk. As I managed to stand up and slide into my seat, I received a standing ovation. I tried hard to hide the tears of embarrassment in my eyes.

     At that moment, our English teacher came through the door. She glanced at us and smiled. Everything appeared to be, as it should. So she stood before us, and said, “Good morning, class.”

     My school day had just begun, and already I’d suffered serious humiliation for being me. Would this ever stop, I thought. Running away was an option, but where would I go? And taking my own life? . . .

     The bell rang. It was lunchtime. I grabbed my book bag, exited the classroom and headed to my locker. As I approached, I muttered, “Oh, hell.” Plastered on the locker door was a picture of me in my glasses, with horns and a huge nose. I wanted to fall down a well and disappear.

     Instead, I took my lunch money, $1.50 in quarters, from my book bag, put the bag in the locker, and walked cautiously to the cafeteria. As I entered, someone grabbed me from behind, and my world turned upside down.

     I yelled, “Hey! You’re choking me. Get your arm off my neck. I can’t breathe.”

     “Shut your face, dweeb. Give me your lunch money,” my attacker demanded.

     “No way,” I whined. I had no idea where my courage came from.

     “He said, I want it now, you little wimp!”

      And then his fingers were all over my face. “What are you doing? Those are my glasses. Don’t take them. I can’t see a thing without them,” I moaned.

     “Give me the money or I’ll step on them, you little twerp.”

     His voice sounded familiar. He’d picked on me before. “Stop it, Evan!” I shouted.

     I wasn’t about to give in. Without my glasses, the world looked like one big fuzz ball. All of a sudden, I spun around two or three times and fell to the ground. I could hear the quarters I had grasped in my hand go plink, plink, plink, plink, plink, plink, as they hit the tile floor.

     Then the bell sounded ending the lunch hour. My now empty hand rested on my glasses. I grabbed them and pushed them back into place on my face. I looked around and saw nobody. The jerk who’d picked on me had absconded with my lunch money.

     Why nobody intervened bewildered me. Where were the cafeteria monitors? I got up off the ground, tried to regain my composure, and headed to class. This has got to stop, I believed.

     And it did.

     The headline in the Monday edition of the Forest Oaks Press read, “SIXTEEN-YEAR-OLD FOREST OAKS HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT MURDERED. Coroner’s findings indicate he had six quarters lodged in his throat. Fourteen-year-old freshman has been arrested and charged with felony murder.”

 

 

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Wednesday, February 28, 2024

If you did it, you don’t want her to know. And if you didn’t, you want to prove you’re being honest about it.

 

But, if she doesn’t believe you, she may say . . .

 

 

You’re Cheating

 

“You’re cheating, aren’t you?”

she asked, with a scowl on her face.

 

“No, I’m not,” I replied.

“It’s not my place.”

 

“You’re my partner

and I trusted you.”

 

“How did I break that trust?

What did I do?”

 

“Oh, you better come clean,

Or you’ll have a price to pay.”

 

“I’m clean as a whistle.

That’s all I have to say.”

 

“I see it in your eyes.

You’re one of those unscrupulous guys.”

 

“But I didn’t do anything,

and this may come as a surprise.

 

“I’m as honest as the day is long.

I play by the book.”

 

“Just keep it up, mister.

I’m not letting you off the hook.”

 

“What am I, . . .

some kind of fish?”

 

“Keep going on like this,

and you may get your wish.”

 

“I’ve had it.

Take my hand.

 

“You’ll see I haven’t been cheating.

Then you’ll understand.”

 

She grabbed my hand,

and stared at me.

 

No sign of a run, or even a marriage,

could she see.

 

“You’re worth nothing!” she screamed,

in a way that made me shake.

 

But she was right.

I’d made a huge mistake.

 

I threw my cards on the table

And admitted I’d overbid.

 

With my cheating behind us,

I put my face in my hands and hid.

 

 

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Saturday, February 24, 2024

When we don’t move forward in life, we wonder why. We look for someone to blame.

 

However, the answer may be closer than we want it to be. For we may be . . .

 

 

Our Own Worst Enemy

 

I’m drowning.

Please help me

find my way.

 

I need

an answer

to survive.

 

Yes, I’m listening,

but you’re not

making any sense.

 

I’m trying

hard

to understand.

 

But the picture

you’re painting

is cloudy.

 

All right,

describe it

to me again.

 

Why

can’t I

hear you?

 

Where

did you

go?

 

This isn’t

funny.

Come back.

 

What?

You never

left?

 

This

is getting

weird.

 

What

are you

implying?

 

How

is it

my fault?

 

I need

to have

a what?

 

A plan?

What kind

of plan?

 

One to help

me escape

from myself?

 

 

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Monday, February 12, 2024

Sometimes things occur when least expected. When you’re young, this can be quite confusing.

 

You try to make sense of what’s happening. But this can be a challenge in . . .

 

 

The Oval Office

 

      Growing up is hard to do. You surmount one hurdle only to move on to the next. My name is Jason Haggerty. I grew up in a single-parent home. My mother could be quite the character. She challenged me in ways that made me think, but not always to my liking.

      However, if it were not for her, I wouldn’t be the man I am today. I’m president of Haggerty, Styles, and Lee, a successful advertising firm.

      Let me share an example of how my mother interacted with me. I was ten years old at the time and had a mind of my own. It was then that our lives collided in a very unexpected way.

      The day was cloudy, with a chance of rain. We finished breakfast and sat staring out the kitchen window. Then Mom turned towards me, and . . .

      “Jason, what do you want to be when you grow up?”

      “How should I know? I’m only ten.”

      “Come on. You must think about it sometimes.”

      “Yeah, sometimes.”

      “Well . . .”

      “I’m thinking.”

      “So, you’ve had enough time.”

      “Uh, President of the United States. That’s what I want to be.”

      “Why?”

      “I don’t know.”

      “You must have some idea as to why. It’s a big job, you realize.”

      “Mom, I gotta go.”

      “Go where?”

      “Not go. Go!”

      “Oh! Okay.”

      I left the kitchen and raced down the hall to the bathroom. I didn’t think I was going to make it, but I got lucky.

      When I exited the bathroom, Mom was standing in the hallway. “Did everything come out all right?” she asked, with grin on her face.

      “Aw, Mom, stop it!”

      That night, I lay in bed thinking about becoming president. I would be king, I thought. I’d make all the rules and have my own office. It sounded so good.

      My eyes started to close and I fell into a deep sleep. “President Haggerty,” a voice called out.

      “Huh, what do you want? I’m trying to sleep.”

      “Sleep? You’re on the job, President. So wake up!”

      “Okay, I’m awake. Now what?”

      “You’re wanted in the Oval Office.”

      “Oval what?”

      “Oh, come now, don’t play games with me.”

      “I’m not playing games. Mom doesn’t let me play games at night.”

      “You’re forty-five years old. If you want to play games, you don’t have to ask your mother.”

      “Forty-five? What?”

      “You heard me.”

      “Who are you?”

      “Your Chief of Staff. But you know that. I make things happen for you.”

      “Like what?”

      “Whatever you’d like. Just name it.”

      “Anything I want.”

      “Generally so. There might be some exceptions. I don’t want to do anything illegal.”

      “Mom doesn’t let me do anything illegal. She says I’ll get arrested if I do.”

      “No worry, presidents don’t get arrested.”

      “You mean they can do bad things and won’t get caught?”

      “For the most part, yes.”

      “What about the other part?”

      “What other part?”

      “The rest, after the most?”

      “You’re confusing me. And you’re wanted in the Oval Office. So get up and come with me.”

      “All right.”

      I began to roll out of bed. It wasn’t as easy as it used to be. I was bigger and bulkier. I took my time and stood up. “Oh, my,” I murmured. Staring back at me from the mirror on the wall was a grown man in a suit. Who is this person? I wondered.

      My Chief of . . . was gone and the door of the room was open. I looked out and saw people—lots of people moving around. They appeared to be very busy.

      I started down the hallway. A young woman smiled at me, and said, “Good morning, Mr. President.”

      “Good morning,” I whispered, and continued down the corridor.

      A tall, well-dressed, older woman looked me in the eyes. “Mr. President, I need to talk with you. It’s very important,” she stated.

      I didn’t know where the words came from or why they flowed from my mouth, but I spoke as if I knew what to say. “Senator Wells, how can I be of assistance to you?”

      “I need you to consider a very important proposal.”

      “Proposal? Are you asking me to marry you?”

      “What? Oh, no! You’re joking, aren’t you?”

      “Why, yes. I guess so. What is the proposal?”

      “Can we talk in the Oval Office?”

      “Senator Wells, I gotta go.”

      “Huh, go where?”

      “Not go. Go!”

      “Oh! Okay, Mr. President.”

      “I ran as fast as I could down the hall. Seeing the sign, “Private Men’s Room,” I entered, pulled down my pants and sat on the pot.

      Then I heard someone knocking on the door. “Go away,” I yelled. “There’s only one seat in here.”

      A woman’s voice replied, “I know.”

      “Senator Wells, just leave me alone.”

      “Senator who?”

      “Stop playing games with me. You know who.”

      “All I know is that you spend more time in the “Oval Office” than any ten-year-old I know, Jason. So come out, now!

      “All right, Mom. I’m coming,” I muttered.

      “And remember to flush.”

      This story always will be a part of me, with a small addition. “Keep all your reading material in the ‘Oval Office’ a safe distance from the pot, and don’t flush while sitting on it, for you may go down with the crap. And no president wants to do that,” Mom would say, in a way I never forgot.

 

 

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Wednesday, January 31, 2024

Can dogs and cats get along? How might this happen?

 

Who’s the boss? You’ll find out, when you have  . . .

 

 

A Cat In The House

 

     My name is Lizzy. I’m a cocker spaniel and live with my Dad, Adam, and spaniel sister, Bets. Dad is single and looking for a mate. And I’m looking for a mother. Sometimes we visit and stay overnight at my “mother-to-be’s” house.

     The home my sister and I have been visiting recently is quite crowded. Three females and one male live there. However, the visits aren’t bad. One of the females, the mother, Anna, is nice and treats me with respect. The two girls, Sadie and Maddy, both schnauzers, are just there. Even though I’m female, too, they don’t pay much attention to me.

     And then there is Amore. I heard someone say his name meant “love,” but he exhibits anything but the tenderness and kindness you’d expect, especially to my sister and me. Some might say he’s the boss of the house. He’s smaller than we are, but has a very controlling attitude.

     He sits in the armchair next to the couch. If we come too close, he swats us across the face with his cat paw. It scares the hell out of me—makes me shake and scoot away. But it never hurts. I wondered why. And then I heard Dad say, “Glad you declawed him, Anna.”

     I really didn’t know what that meant, but I guess it’s a good thing. Not only is Amore the boss, he also is a magician and makes things disappear. One morning the doorbell rang. “Mom” opened it and said, “Hello, Isaac.”

      “Ms. H, the key to the back gate isn’t under the bench.”

     “It has to be. That’s where I always leave it for you so you can get into the yard to mow and blow.”

     “It isn’t there,” he said.

     “Just look for the plastic, springy yellow keychain holder. It must have fallen on the ground.”

     “Did that. It’s not there.”

     Well, she opened the gate for him with a key she had in the kitchen, and all seemed fine. That evening, she went out to water some plants in the area where the bench was. As I watched, she looked up toward the sky and saw a shinny thing hanging from the roof. “My God!” she screamed. “There’s the keychain.” The only way it could’ve gotten there is because Amore is a magician.

     This, however, was just the beginning of my relationship with Amore, for his mom and my dad mated. In our new house, everything seemed to be going well. The dog doors gave us the freedom to exit the house, but not leave the yard. That is, except for Amore. We could run and play all day on the beautiful lawn. It was paradise. But he could jump the fence and go anywhere he wanted.

     One evening, Mom and Dad leashed up my two stepsisters, Bets, and me, for our walk through the neighborhood. As we pranced along and smelled the grass, trees, and fire hydrants, we passed a couple standing in their driveway. The woman called out to Mom and Dad, “Do you know that you have a cat following you?”

     “What!” Mom exclaimed.

     There was Amore, walking, in step, behind us. Seems he would do this every night. Sometimes he would start out with us, then turn down a different block, and then join us again as we proceeded on our journey.

     One day, as I lay on the couch gazing out the window, the doorbell rang. Mom went to the door and opened it. There was a woman standing there.

     She looked at Mom, and said, “Do you own a black male cat?”

     “Yes. Why do you ask?”

     “Has he had all his shots? And has he been neutered?”

     Flustered, Mom, stammered, “Yes, he has. But . . .”

     “Well, he’s been sleeping in my bed a lot of nights with my female cat.”

     “Oh, my! I’ll be sure to lock him in, so he doesn’t visit you again.”

     “No, you don’t have to do that,” she stated. “He’s been wonderful company in bed. I just wanted to make sure he’s healthy.”

     That’s my brother, Amore—a traveling scoundrel. But there’s a lot more to tell.

     One night Mom and Dad were getting ready for bed. Mom stared at Dad and said, “Honey, I think you need to sleep in the guest room tonight.”   

     “Huh, why? What did I do?” Dad asked.

     “Nothing,” she said. “I’m suffering from Restless Leg Syndrome and I’m going to toss and turn all night and keep you awake.”

     Dad responded, “Okay. Are you sure?”

     “Yes, I’m sure.”

     Dad got into his pajamas, brushed his teeth, and headed toward the guest room. And I decided to follow. I didn’t want to be kicked around by Mom either.

     When we got there, Amore was sleeping between the pillows. Dad crawled in slowly, trying not to disturb him. I jumped up onto the bed and lay down at the end on the other side. I couldn’t have predicted what happened next.

     Dad lay on his side facing Amore. Amore lifted his head and glared at him. Then he got up and started walking up and down Dad’s body. He did this all night.

     Finally, Dad rolled out of bed and went down the hall to be with Mom. I followed him. As he entered the room and got into bed, Mom woke up. He looked at her, and asked, “How long did it take for you to fall asleep?”

     She replied, “About fifteen minutes.”

     “Oh, my. And I’ve been up all night.”

     “Why?” she inquired.

     “The cat.” He put his head on the pillow and fell asleep.

     About a year later, Mom and Dad decided to move to a senior community, Sunset Glen, about a half hour away from our home in Sacramento. They spent weeks packing boxes, as they got ready for the move.

     The day arrived. My sisters and I were put in the backyard and told to stay there, as the movers began to load the truck. However, I snuck into the house. Since I didn’t get in the way, they let me remain inside and watch. They locked Amore in the guest room.

     When the movers needed to get the stuff out of the guest room, Dad went back there and got Amore. He walked down the hallway clutching him in his arms. As he did, a mover came through the front door and startled both Amore and him. Amore jumped out of Dad’s arms, ran out the front door, and disappeared down the block. And neither Dad nor Mom could find him.

     The movers closed up their truck and headed to our new home. With tears in my eyes, I cried for Amore. I thought I’d never see him again.

     After the movers unloaded the truck, we settled in for the evening. Mom looked at Dad and said, “We have to go back to the house tomorrow and do a final cleanup. I believe Amore will be there.”

     “I hope you’re right,” Dad replied.

     The next morning, Mom and Dad loaded my sisters and me into the station wagon and we headed back to our old house. Lo and behold, Amore sat on the front porch waiting to be rescued. My heart beat so fast; I thought it was going to jump out of my body.

     After Mom and Dad got everything cleaned up in the house, we headed back to our new home. When we pulled into the garage, all of us kids, except Amore, exited the car. With the tailgate open, Amore sat and stared. No matter how hard Mom and Dad tried, he wouldn’t leave the car. He must have thought, This is how I got here and this is how I’ll get home.

     Two days later, Mom managed to get Amore into a cage and brought him into the house. She turned to Dad and said, “Remember what the vet told us.”

     “Yeah. Keep him in the house for two weeks before letting him out, so he knows this is home.”

     However, the next day the doorbell rang. Dad opened the door, not knowing Amore was right behind him. And he escaped through it.

     Before Mom or Dad could say anything, he stopped at the edge of the front lawn, looked around, and headed back into the house. This was his home, and Amore, indeed, meant love. Our hearts were full of joy and the family was back together again.

 

 

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