At times, we have dark thoughts, but try not to share them with others.

 

Sometimes, however, we do. As a result, there are consequences we may not have anticipated. So we ask . . .

 

 

Can we . . .

 

be held accountable

for what

we thought

about doing,

but didn’t do?

Who makes

the decision?

Yes, I’m asking you.

How can I find

the answer?

 

What?

You say

I have the answer.

But that’s impossible.

That’s why

I’m asking you.

 

I’m lost

and need

your assistance.

Please—

help me.

 

Is that your hand?

May I

take it?

I can’t.

But why not?

Aren’t you

supposed

to help me?

 

Don’t I deserve

a second chance?

I didn’t pull

the trigger.

 

Yes,

I thought

about doing it,

but I didn’t.

And you

know that.

Don’t you?

 

You were there.

You’re always there.

So now,

what am I

supposed to do?

 

What?

Accept

my punishment.

But I’m

innocent.

 

You can’t

be serious.

I should

have known better.

 

I’m not

a murderer.

I don’t

even own

a gun.

How can I

be guilty?

 

Thinking about

doing it

is not a crime.

Is it?

 

Yes,

I did share

my feelings

with her.

But I

didn’t tell her

to do it.

 

Where are you?

Did you leave?

Say something.

You have

to help me.

 

It’s getting dark

in here.

The lights.

Where

are the lights?

It’s pitch black.

Where am I?

And why

aren’t you listening?

 

I’m feeling

closed in—

trapped.

I can’t move.

 

I need air.

I can’t breathe,

I’m drifting.

 

But where?

But where?

But where?

But where?

But . . .

 

 

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